I remember when Jonathan and I first met. It was in the month of November in 1997. I was on the rebound and he was still hung up on another girl. In the beginning our relationship issues didn't bother me. We were dating each other, and trying to get to know each other. However, I still very much wanted my ex back. I came up with a plan, I would tell my ex that Jonathan and I were engaged. In my mind he would tell me how much he loved me, and I would tell Jonathan we didn't need to get married.
It's funny when you think about things now. In the beginning we didn't plan to be here. We were both tired of dating, but there was still issues that needed to be worked out. After I told my ex about my new fiance he did what I thought he would do. He drove to Texas and begged me to call it off. He wanted to get promised to be engaged. The breaking point was hearing him tell his mother how much he loved me, and she told him she couldn't allow it.
For a long time I held resentment for her. He cried and begged me to give Jonathan's ring back. Before that night I didn't think Jonathan and I would really get married. We hardly knew each other. However everything changed when I saw my ex cry on the bed like a two year old. I knew I couldn't marry him. I tried to tell myself that things would be okay until that day. He wanted me to learn Italian, convert to being Catholic, and get pregnant before we were married. He thought it would force his parents into liking me. I thought it would betray everything that I was. So I told him to leave and I told him it was over.
The next few months Jonathan and I really got a chance to be girlfriend and boyfriend. The girlfriend stage has to be the best stage when it comes to relationships. The men are nice, funny, and they let you have the heat on in the car. They laugh at all our silly jokes, and love making is off the charts. It's almost like a teaser. You think you're getting Mr. All Night, and the all night turns out to be one hour for the first few years. Then later it just starts being sex. Nothing seems as sweet as it did the first night. The night that you shed tears because it was sooo wonderful. Yes, those are the glory days..
It's funny when you think about things now. In the beginning we didn't plan to be here. We were both tired of dating, but there was still issues that needed to be worked out. After I told my ex about my new fiance he did what I thought he would do. He drove to Texas and begged me to call it off. He wanted to get promised to be engaged. The breaking point was hearing him tell his mother how much he loved me, and she told him she couldn't allow it.
For a long time I held resentment for her. He cried and begged me to give Jonathan's ring back. Before that night I didn't think Jonathan and I would really get married. We hardly knew each other. However everything changed when I saw my ex cry on the bed like a two year old. I knew I couldn't marry him. I tried to tell myself that things would be okay until that day. He wanted me to learn Italian, convert to being Catholic, and get pregnant before we were married. He thought it would force his parents into liking me. I thought it would betray everything that I was. So I told him to leave and I told him it was over.
The next few months Jonathan and I really got a chance to be girlfriend and boyfriend. The girlfriend stage has to be the best stage when it comes to relationships. The men are nice, funny, and they let you have the heat on in the car. They laugh at all our silly jokes, and love making is off the charts. It's almost like a teaser. You think you're getting Mr. All Night, and the all night turns out to be one hour for the first few years. Then later it just starts being sex. Nothing seems as sweet as it did the first night. The night that you shed tears because it was sooo wonderful. Yes, those are the glory days..
